Self-advocating has always been difficult for me because there remains enormous uncertainty when it comes to knowing just what exactly it is that I want.
As a younger man my nature was energetic and extroverted. That man was always happy to talk about himself. But he was also insecure, inexperienced, and a complete inchoate.
Years later and only the insecurity remains, and this newfound proclivity for introversion. Once upon another time I was a believer, and then a denier, and then a knower, and then a questioner followed by a searcher.
But now I’m learning to be a listener, which is why I find the introspection to be helpful. it’s a turn toward not away.